Wow... life changes so fast.

Journal Jan. 3, 2011

So I figure that this is as good a time as any to start a diary (per se). New years resolutions and all that. It has been a pretty eventful day. I did a tarot reading for Anya and it seems that my readings have been turning out pretty acurate. Aba got his new place today. He's renting it for 6 months, I'm not quite sure what it will be like with him not living here. Maybe it will be easier for mom, she has been so sad lately. Maybe it will be better for him too, he just isn't dealing well with life. I think he's going through depression/mid-life crisis. I love them both so much but I don't think I could bear to feel anything but apathy right now. I want to tell my friend Molly but I didnt want to cause her pain bacause her parents went through this last year. At least Anya is with me. She has been such a blessing in my life. I don't now how I could be handleing this without her. The worst thing I think is Gabe though. He's only 5 and I don't know if this will be too difficult for him. But I guess worrying about it won't help (ah the apathy emerges). I'm a little worried though, I did a tarot for Aba and it told him to move and I did one for mom and it said that things are ending.  Did I give the final blow to the wedge that's driving them apart? I think I might have. Like I said earlier: caring will just hurt too much. I... I don't know what else to add to this right now so ttfn.
Later
~Naomi
*UPDATE*
On a good note, today (Jan. 4, 2011) I gave my boyfriend Eddie his Christmas/Holiday present and he told me it was exactly what he wanted and it made me happy! ^__^