LYRICS!!!! (Sorry that I can only write sad songs. D: )

So Hey! 

I'm not really in the mood to tell everyone about my topsy-turvy life. But. But I wrote some lyrics and I'll put them here and if anyone is reading this and wants to let me know what they think I'd be delighted. (Did I mention that I really love constructive critisism? )

So this first one is about a friend that I've known for a long time. A best friend. Sadly, this year she and I have been growing apart. It really is sad for me because I have known her more than half my life. But well...yeah. I guess I wasn't as important to her.

Curtain Call

When you think of me

Do you remember that autumn?

When all the leaves were changing

'Cause when i remember you

All I can see is then

That was the begginning 

Of the end

Everything fades away

No promises were kept

I tried so hard and I still couldn't hold

Onto you

That was the begginning

Of the end

I never knew

How painful losing you would be

And grasping on

For just one more year with you

Excrutiating

And sitting here

Next to you 

Pretending to be happy

When I know how far away you are.

That was the begginning 

Of the end

Everything fades away

No promises were kept

I tried so hard and I still couldn't hold

Onto you

That was the begginning

Of the end

BRIDGE:

And I call back

Those days

In the childhood years

No conflicting people

No insecure fears

That was the begginning 

Of the end

Everything fades away

No promises were kept

I tried so hard and I still couldn't hold

Onto you

That was the begginning

Of the end

This is our curtain call

Last time I see you again

 

This next one is more recent. It was also a spur-of-the-moment song. Y'all know whats going on right now so this is kinda the emotions from that.

Five Seconds

Tears course down my cheeks
I should have expected this
But still
When it hits
My heart will never heal completely

In a moment
Maybe five seconds
A life can change
Nothing stays the same
Nothing anyone says or does
Can make this come undone

Ice cold
These warm tears
leave my heart freezing
And I return to that moment in time
A phone call
And simple words

In a moment
Maybe five seconds
A life can change
Nothing stays the same
Nothing anyone says or does
Can make this come undone

BRIDGE:

How can anything be
And because of this
My heart has ceased it's beat

In a moment
Maybe five seconds
A life can change
Nothing stays the same
Nothing anyone says or does
Can make this come undone

How can I live on
All that I knew is gone
My world has flipped upside down
My chest completely hollow now

In just a moment
Only five seconds
My life
Changed

Wow... life changes so fast.

Journal Jan. 3, 2011

So I figure that this is as good a time as any to start a diary (per se). New years resolutions and all that. It has been a pretty eventful day. I did a tarot reading for Anya and it seems that my readings have been turning out pretty acurate. Aba got his new place today. He's renting it for 6 months, I'm not quite sure what it will be like with him not living here. Maybe it will be easier for mom, she has been so sad lately. Maybe it will be better for him too, he just isn't dealing well with life. I think he's going through depression/mid-life crisis. I love them both so much but I don't think I could bear to feel anything but apathy right now. I want to tell my friend Molly but I didnt want to cause her pain bacause her parents went through this last year. At least Anya is with me. She has been such a blessing in my life. I don't now how I could be handleing this without her. The worst thing I think is Gabe though. He's only 5 and I don't know if this will be too difficult for him. But I guess worrying about it won't help (ah the apathy emerges). I'm a little worried though, I did a tarot for Aba and it told him to move and I did one for mom and it said that things are ending.  Did I give the final blow to the wedge that's driving them apart? I think I might have. Like I said earlier: caring will just hurt too much. I... I don't know what else to add to this right now so ttfn.
Later
~Naomi
*UPDATE*
On a good note, today (Jan. 4, 2011) I gave my boyfriend Eddie his Christmas/Holiday present and he told me it was exactly what he wanted and it made me happy! ^__^